My eating habits

So I don't know if I told you all about this,  but lately (or for quite some time to be honest) I have had a need to eat.. constantly, I'm not craving  sweets or chocolate or anything particular, and I'm definitely not hungry , my body just tells me to eat all the time, and when I'm not eating I'm chewing gum, and I have tried to quit but its so hard I just wanna eat, from the second I wake up til I go to bed..and i couldn't figure out why?? I'm not pregnant, I'm not exercising enough for it to make wanna eat that much, I'm not hungry, I'm not unhappily in love, I'm not super miserable or anything else that i could think of that would make me wanna eat? Been thinking about it a lot lately but i just couldn't find the root of it..

But yesterday, Betsy came home with this thing that she had read or seen somewhere and that says that eating or chewing, or while chewing I should say is the only time when the body relaxes and the mind can let go of all the tensions and anxiety.. and I guess it gives you a feeling of being happy?

And that just explains it. It really is the chewing part that I'm after.. just constantly need something in my mouth (don't even go there) , because of all this anxiety that I'm constantly carrying around trying to suppress or pretend like its not there not to fall apart.

And just knowing this (I have completely decided that that is the reason so no point to argue with that)makes me feel so much better about it.
Now I'm gonna have to start to breath instead, which scares me, cause breathing connects you to your emotions and all that.. and I have worked way to hard on not to feel anything about anything right now..but i think i really have to figure it out and find another way to deal with it..

And it will be easier to stop the eating now I think..  i might go back to drinking diet coke instead.. or do you smart people have any other tips? I really need some help..

Prophylaxis?  And don't say yoga, I can't do yoga right now, I fig-git, way to stressed..

Korvstroganoff

1. Put all the ingredients out on the counter, because they look pretty and that helps you get the real feel..

2. chop the dead chicken that poses as a pig and put it in the pan with the onions and the garlic..

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3. get a little sad because it looks so poor.. then chop some yellow peppers and put them in there because we like when things are colorful

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4. Then put some tomatoes in there cause to be honest.. we need more color to save this one..

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5. then put the rest of the stuff in and take a picture..

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6. then take another picture but from a different angle..


7.  let someone you don't like try it first.. if you get this face..

 8.  pour some ketchup on it..

9. And eat.

diets out the door...

Only because I feel sad and I've been reading this blog written by this amazing 12 year old boy Gustav who just recently died of cancer.. and then reading his mom's blog about the whole thing for hours.. I was a little week and therefor let Betsy talk me in to going to the "GHETTO RALPHS" with her to buy some goodies for our big TV night tonight (LOST, American Idol, Dancing with the stars (that I now have to watch because of crazy Pamela Anderson and Kate Gossling are dancing away))and I was so devastated I even went without looking in the mirror..  and thats pretty bad for being me..

Look at me all white trash in the black market.. just pretending to look at strawberries by the way..

     Guess where i found Bits... 

 

And it looks like we did good but..

..if you look a little closer..

poor jennifer

I feel so sorry for myself today.. first the parking issues.. then more cat diarrhea on the floor, and on the cats ass and paw..didn't step in it today that's one positive thing,
nose is stuffy, allergies bad, eyes hurting, swollen, runny, head exploding, not even putting on funny socks helped, shitty weather.. have almost eaten all the candy my mom sent so now I also feel fat and bad for breaking my healthy streak, my ass and legs are hurting so bad from over exercising though that i just can not exercise today.. I remember how it felt when I over did it this summer don't wanna go there again.. besides, for some reason, even though I'm wearing the same shoes and socks everyday running I know all of a sudden have no skin left on my heels and that hurts bad too..

Lets see what else..
Oh bad hair day!
hm.. think that's it for now..

Street cleaning day

I'm so pissed! Hate street cleaning day.. we have plenty off space on the street but my idiot neighbors have no f**** idea how to park. I hate them, same two people always  hogging two spaces, shitheads, all of them.. ruined my morning.. that and the rain! And my allergies, and my body aches..
At least this makes me smile a little and go moaha ha ha  to myself..
Betsy ordered these stickers a while ago, they came yesterday, today is the perfect day to start using them..

YES!

The first guy that I run into, wearing these shorts will be the guy that I will marry! So now you know!

Finally!!

What a fantastic day, talked to my Mormor (grandma) this morning, its her 72nd birthday today! Made me so happy just to hear her voice and that everything was good! Miss her!

And then when I came home from an amazing walk on the beach this was in the mailbox.. How fantastic! I LOVE MY MOM!! I LOVE MONDAYS! 
funny thing though, I knew she was sending me lypsyl's, I'm out, and i have tried since last week not to buy some shitty one's here, but to wait until i could get my Swedish one's, but I finally caved this morning and went around to the pharmacy's until i  finally found one I could buy! I should have waited..
And now i just watched the hollywood wifes.. I wanna be Maria Montezami.. I can not stop laughing! Makes me wanna do the TV show..And Anna Anka is at Sofia's house for dinner, and Denni got to be on TV, he is so proud of himself now! I'm gonna stay with Denni and Romeo by the way for about 2 weeks..  Ah, and then i have to ask Sofia to arrange for me to meet the wife's, they are so cool, my new idols for sure! Oh.. susanne, Paivi.. Lena.. i'm in love! They make me wanna give up everything i believe in and just marry rich!ha ha!

Wellness and Cat poo..

I've decided to whip my self into shape. Physically as well as mentally. I really need to eat better to have more energy to live the life that I live. And all that..
So to make a long story about panic attacks stress and nightmares a little shorter..

I decided to take this weekend and just do the right thing. Relax my mind, exercise even more and eat well. And I did good, soo good, so today Sunday, I am completely exhausted and I decided to give myself a spa afternoon.. Wax my legs, Hair and facial masks and a real nice hot shower, but in real Jennifer manner I instead got in to a fight with a lizard, stepped in cat poo, and ran out of hot water.

Now i'm finally sitting down, had a little talk to the Yogi man and he said:
When the mind is backed by will, miracles happen.

So I feel a little better now, And I really hope he's right..

EARTH HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And here is why Earth Hour is important, Rain forest and our children.. here demonstrated by Malva and Magda.

Last year, Me Anna, Erika and Josefin were celebrating Earth Hour together with a proper girls night, We cooked well in time for the food to be ready before we had to turn the electrical stuff off,  and Anna had loaded her apartment with candles, we were on top of things, doing something important for the environment, feeling good about it..
Until someone turned some music on and we started dancing, I remember there being a lot of "Tingeling" played, and Mans Zelmerlof.. Me and Erika crawled around on the floor as usual pretending to be sexy but in reality just to drunk to stand up straight..
And somewhere between that and the sparkling wine we kind of lost track of time.. And too late we realized that not only had all the lights been on during the entire Earth Hour but also the computer, TV and the kitchen fan.. Candles still unlit..
We decided that its the thought that counts and headed out to Bern's..

Le Chic

Had a great night..Now in bed, but this is how it went down..:::::::: Le dinner at Le Chic, wine from Le Liquor store.. drinks and music at  Le SeanE's house..all within walking distance from Le house.

And I accidentally let Josh out again so we had to chase him..  questions on that?

Done cleaning

Breathing time

plan of the day

Ah, its all gray and dark outside today.. I've slept in to 9.30, but on the other hand I have not had much sleep lately.. Yesterday I got up at 5am and worked for 14 hours, today im just taking my time , drinking my coffee, gonna clean and fix things in the house so it will be a little nicer for bits when she gets home, I dont know how it happens.. I did clean the house from floors to ceiling on saturday, scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom, but now it looks like a tornado went through here.. I just have to do it! and then im gonna go for the longest walk/run ever.. after all that stuff I ate yesterday..

Overeaters Anonymous

Today I've eaten:
Scrambled eggs
sausage
French toast
4 big glazed doughnuts
peanut crackers
chicken
rice
sallad
crab sallad
fish
potatoes
a lot of sauce..2 different kinds
melon
shit loads of brownies
chocolate ice cream
and one french fries

And I'm still glancing on Betsy's double cheeseburger that is just laying there getting cold on the table..

and I'm not eating cause I'm hungry but just because I can I think..! I need to find something else to do!! 

Working hard

This is a rough day :)

9am. already been through hair and makeup eggs and frenchtoast buckets of coffee and two doughnuts.

Goodmorning!

Sunrise at Sunset blvd

St Matty's Day

I love Summer! she is the cutest little girl. Reminds me about Malva..I luv Bitsii too..

Some pictures from Thousand Oaks Last night..  we were celebrating Matt's birthday!Good times but sad times but good..  so this is what i did before i had to go save/chase the cats and rush to set.. which was great by the way, great group of people, the guy that played my husband at that "Swedish crawfish party" shoot i did in the fall was there, Reminded me of the fact that I actually have not seen the result yet, have to call about that..
Tomorrow I have a 7am call time, means i have to get up at 5am the latest. NOW LOST!

JOHN CUSACK TWEETED US

JOHN CUSACK JUST POSTED THE "HOT TUB TIME MACHINE" MUSIC VIDEO ON HIS TWITTER!! CONGRATS TO US ALL, MOSTLY TO THE YOU KNOW WHO!

Today:

Guitar center shoot

I took this picture and it was not supposed to look like that how do I do that on purpose?

DRAMA

I went up to Thousand Oaks to celebrate Matt's birthday last night, and I was supposed to stay there over night but for some reason I had a strong urge to go home so I did, I drove all the way home, got back around 2am just to discover that the cats (or someone) had knocked the mosquito screen out of the bedroom window that I had left open, and the cats were gone...   My heart jumped out of my body! How do I tell Betsy??

Any way after some cat food and a lot of chasing and getting drenched by our water sprinklers to get to Josh i finally got him inside and locked him in the bathroom and then i heard crying from the outside and Pete literally came running too me, also drenched by the water he must have been hurdled up in the bushes as well, and by this point he was tired of.. 
Went to bed at 4am only to be woken up by a call saying, can you slap some eyeliner and a leather jacket on and go shoot a commercial with SLASH in an hour?? HELL YEAH! so I'm on my way..tired, tired as fuck but happy..  If I hadn't found Pete I would have died... and now the little bugger  is all clingy on me, don't think he'll escape again..

Make today better.

 Happy birthday Matt, I hope you will be celebrating where ever you are.. 

Today is weird,  my mind is just filled with black clutter, my stomach is twisted inside out and I don't know where to start with myself or what to do with anything. Catch 22 again.. Panic. And Matt's birthday, thinking about the family and friends.. My Betsy..

Should i stay or should I go? I can't decide, But I don't really have a choice either. i keep waiting for that day when I will just wake up and have all the answers.. But I don't know, i just don't know..

Anyway,I decided to put work down for a couple of hours, can't focus anyway and I'm going on a "breath and think walk.."

Last night was better..

Went to beautiful Cho Cho's and crazy Matt's house again last night, more barbecuing , perfectly relaxed Saturday night!!
Sunday morning not so fun.. James had left his car up there (my fault) so I had to get up early to drive back to Laurel Canyon and pick it up.. turns out we had forgotten about the LA marathon even though we'd been talking about it the night before.. Sunset and Hollywood blvd were closed off.. so instead of a just a 15 minute trip I had to drive around the whole city and it took me about 2 hours to get back home.. SO STUPID!!!

And now i've spent all day watching "The Swedish Hollywood wife's" and i just can't stop laughing at Maria Montazami she must be the unintentionally funniest person to ever live..  I've been trying to convince my mom and dad to watch it but i don't think there gonna.. Sophie did though but i dont think she enjoyed it as much as I did.. it's so hilarious! And Anna Anka.. i love her now that I've actually met her.. I love how she talks about Paul Anka's nuts hanging down to his knees.. ha ha she is crazy! Well i've gotta go back to watching glamourama and my Indian food cravings.. if anyone feel like stopping by i want the Tikka masala with white rice and a cheese Naan and Raita! Thanks xo xo

Not just another night..

After I landed I rushed in to Hollywood to meet up with Emilia and Natacha for some drinks.. what could have been a great night turned out not to be so much fun.. I was so tired from flying and I just wasn't feeling it and after running around in a tacky Hollywood clubs where everyone has just turned 21 and are more into posing then having fun, and after 2 pretty bad cab rides.. one ending with the cab driver locking us in the car and then getting the police.. I grabbed Emilia and started walking home.. Enough is enough..

I had to ask Emilia to pose in front of the cop, he looked a little mad when I started taking pictures of him talking to our cab driver.. And I have no idea who that guy is or how he ended up in my camera?
Some pictures are stolen from here..
Yeah, it wasn't a fun night, lets not do that again.

I went flying..

We had meetings all day yesterday and then Keith asked if i wanted to go flying.. I really didn't! I'm so terrified of dying that the thought of getting in a Cessna flown by Keith wasn't the most appealing to me..


But I decided to just live a little.. and it was the most amazing thing i have ever done! We flew up to Saint Luis Abispo to have some dinner.. inland on the way there and over the coast on the way back.. daylight and then in the dark. California is so gorgeous, amazingly beautiful, when ever we could we flew on 3500m instead of 6500 so we could see better..  Now I wanna go flying again. 

Or co-pilot was the nocest guy, i forgot his name but he's a friend of Keith's and he used to be a Microsoft partner and he is now retired at the age of 39 and he's got is pilot license and now he is becoming an instructor  to have something to do.. and he made me feel so safe!

I'm so Lucky to get to do these things!