HALLOWEEN NIGHT 2

LEAVING NOW!

WOW

WHAT A NIGHT!!!
Nicole had invited us to a charity event Halloween Party in Santa Monica!! Amazing house, Live performances all night and tons and tons of cute boys..Funny people, smart people, lot's of girlfriends, too many girlfriends actually..drinks and food and a fire place and all that we needed!!! Funny thing is that Meryl Streep's daughter that I wrote about last week showed up, and believe it or not, she was really nice to me, complimented me on my hard work ha ha ha ..
Again I had so much fun that I forgot to take pictures... After the Party we went to The Other Room in Venice and met some cuties there as well... and I stole this
from one of them, I think his name was Kenny..

Oh and maybe there is hope in the world, Another one had called and left a message for me this morning, already.. In LA..

Well well, gonna watch some episodes of The Office now before I have to suite up again for tonights West Hollywood Halloween Parade... A night with the Gay's!!!!!!!'

Halloween friday early evening..

HALLOWEEN.. the start of it..

Finally! I'm so glad I went out to buy a costume, feel a lot better today, had a small fit this morning, a feeling of suffocation, but It when away when I went for a little ride..
So now I am preparing for tonight! And tonight, I'm "Gel-ing".Will not let hurting feet put a damp on this night.. also because I'm gonna have to wear the same high heel's tomorrow..
xx

Roddan

Outdoor at Jimmy Kimmel Live, it was fun! He made jokes about his wife's nippels.. Thats all you need to know.

Today's been better

Got my self a crocked bow, tried to fix it for a while, went to the DMV again, the one I went to yesterday was closed, so I took a trip to the west side today, that one being closed as well. And it did not say a word about that on their website.... Why does God not want me to have my drivers license? I've been trying to get it since june, twice have they sent it to the wrong address.. incompetent fools, but way way, little does it become me. I went to Mood instead in search of the perfect polka dot fabric.. And then I got my parka out for tonight's out door concert!!
Anyone had a more exiting day?

AUSTRALIA

I'm so happy that I'm going. It's gonna be amazing, and I can't wait to see my family, my brothers.. this time it won't be 2,5 until i see Patrik again..
I'm also excited cause I have som e really good friends in Sydney that I can't wait to meet! Sara and I worked together at NK once upon a time, she now lives there and is working as a photographer, please have a look at some of her pictures by clicking here
And Paul, we went to Stella Adler together and now him and his girl have started there own acting studio in Australia. And then there is Jess who moved there from LA, she used to work for Atlantic Records, Anyway, it is gonna be so much fun if only I can find a ticket, they are so expensive around Christmas.. and I wanna have some money left to live off as well..
uh I just had a sip of my coffee, it tastes terrible have to go and make some Trader Joe's instant instead, even that tastes better..

Chili con Carne

Or.. apparently it's just called a chili here.. well I insist to say the whole name of the fabulous dish . I didn't take a picture of it ( Sophie) but thats what I made today. After crying at Target, I did my grocery shopping without further mishaps, went home swallowed my Vitamins, cooked a great dinner, had a glass of wine and now sleepy tea.. Everything went just fine , until now when i was gonna book my ticket to Australia. Fucking hell what I hate computors and internet and high rates on flight tickets.
Goodnight!

a queen!

I just cried at target cause I could not pick what vitamins I should buy. And I got really tired from reading the small letters.. And they call me a dram

Depression..

Yes It's here. Woke up with my heart trying to beat its way out of my chest. Panicked when I realized Betsy had left already. In my head are all the things I have to do. HAVE to do. what do I do about them? My first instinct is to pull the covers back over my head and pretened like the day didn't start yet. Just sleep right through it. second thing is, I wanna call my mom and cry and say that I feel lonely.
I force myself out of bed and rush in to the kitchen. I start to clean the stove. The stove have to be clean before I can make coffee..
Then I make coffee at the same time as I'm writing down my grocery list, I have to get the grocery list out of my head to be able to breath, thats how it feels today. In the middle of my multi tasking I fail to close the filter holder to the coffee maker properly, the coffee runs over and I start to cry.. I clean it up and do it all over again. Then i sit down, here by my computor, And Pete jumps up in my lap. Pete is the less affectionate of the two cats I live with, He rarely seeks contact, but the when I was sick, he slept right next to me all night and all day, and now he is in my lap purring.. Animals are amazing.

Amelia and Hilary

But mostly Ewan.. is what got me out of bed to go see the movie! AMELIA that is. Ms Mellby, you have to see it! All of you do! The clothes, the Amelia, The Hillary.. even the Richard Gere.
I am adding this to the list of must see movies for you all. Another Oscar nomination coming up for Ms Swank. She was also there and did a interview and Q&A about the movie. She was lovely of course, and I kept crying the whole time while she was telling us about Amelia Earharts life.
So remember:
1) An Education
2) Amelia

I got sick

Something happened with me on sunday and i got really sick. Kind of like food poisening but the other way, it hurt like hell and i've been in bed on pain med's asleep most of the time. I also had a minor panic attack, and some other signs that depression period is on its way, hitting me with full strength. I think the most obvious signs so far came today: First my Dad called me with wonderful news! Thanks to him I'm gonna be able to fly to AUSTRALIA TO MEET MY FAMILY FOR CHRISTMAS!!! And of course I started to cry, that is exactly what I want and what I need, but instead of it being a normal day in my life where i would just have cried a bit , I did not stop crying all afternoon, I watched an episode of "So you think you can dance".. cried through the whole thing. I had promised to go to a screening of Amelia so I did, cried all way there, through out the whole movie and all the way home..
This tells me that it is the first stadium.Or actually, me having been angry for a couple of weeks have been the first, but I always ignore that, My next stadium is the real depression. Numbness.
I have tonight decided I do not want to get there this time. I'm really tempted to go and get some happy pills, but I'm gonna fight this sucker. I have already taken on hiking the neighbors dog, that gives me a reason to leave the house, And get some exercise And get some sunlight.I have to eat healthy, plenty of D and C vitamins and Iron, I'm packing my schedule full of fun activities, things to look forward too (except for Australia) Went to the screening today, Rod Stewart on Thursday, big Halloween Party on Friday (I had decided to cancel all Halloween plans already but I cant let myself do that) So I'm gonna keep myself busy. but as usual I need everybodys help, don't let me ignore your phone calls or not answer emails. And don't hate me too much if I'm always Angry or crying.
Also one good thing is that I now live with a licensed therapist, who has a lot of experience from depressions, and a bag full of happy pills ha ha..

Laurence Fishburne

I met this guy at a gay bar last night, he wouldn't let me take a picture in there, usually I would not have asked but hey, It's Laurence Fishburne and I wanted a picture of me and him together.. But no. Well he was very nice anyway, and funny! We had a great night! Got very drunk, so today I'm skipping out on brunch with friends, just wanna stay in bed and watch tv all day..

In the Flesh

When you are too drunk to matter, too drunk to care

too drunk to be dancing, too drunk to bear .. all the bla bla bla , and your gay best friend convinced you to not wear a bra...

That's where im at. Ta Ta.

GIGANTIC

Lovely Ladies

Ceiling

Turkey carving dance

Dressing room

bathrooms

weird scary room

Major crystal fountain turned the wrong way

Ball room

Yesterday, Down town shoot, another 10 hour day in high heels. In a huge Theater that looked like nothing on the outside!! But was just amazing on the inside, wish I would have had a better camera..
We were shooting a New TV show called Gigantic, supposedly the new "Gossip Girl" Starring Grace Streep.. Meryl's daughter. And I wish I had never met her. A totally unlikable person, how did that happen? Ad this is not just me, I promise, Everyone hated her, from the make up and hair people to the light guys, to her stand in and the rest of the crew. And, she really was a terrible terrible actress, and for 10 hours straight she kept rolling her eyes to everyone, snatching the hair brush out of the hair stylists hand, messed up in every scene, and i'm sorry to say this, but she is ugly too.. She should be working hard and at least pretend to be a nice person, she has got a lot to live up too..
In the beginning of the day someone who didn't know who she was said " wow, that girl must have great connections." Sums it up.

Thursday in pictures

I should have had this one with me in the car

I met Jennifer that I went to school with, haven't seen her in over 3 years..

I hope you can see whats on my tank top?

Could not have been more fit for what I was feeling that day! ( read last post..)
I also met my friend Sophia's boy friend Jamie there, he works behind the camera, Small world yet again.. This was a Promo/ commercial shoot for VH1, will be seen on your tellie soon..

xx

Thursday in words

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Dinner and a Movie

Had some dinner at 3rd street promenade in Santa Monica Last Night

Then we went to see a movie..

But not this movie.. Though i will definitely go and see it..we saw WHIP IT.. Drew Barrymore's directorial debut.. Marcia gay Harden was fantastic as always, Ellen page cute and awkward, And my old friend Zoe is in it.. the rest wasn't too great.. I don't think you should act while trying to direct a movie for the first time. Or actually I don't think you should be directing yourself at all. But I do think all "chic flicks" should have a Male director.

The Great Zoe Bell.. She used to be Uma's stunt double in Kill Bill.. then Quentin took a liking to her and gave her her own part.. She has got some fun stories to tell..

WHY DID I LEAVE ALL MY BOOTS AND WARM CLOTHES IN SWEDEN????

Rules of Engagement

These two crappy pictures are the only one's I've got from yesterday.. But it was a fun shoot, rehearsals from 11am til 5pm then lunch , then shooting the show in front of a live audience at 6pm.. And i met some nice normal people for a change..

The Bold and the Beautiful

My Trailer

View from my trailer

Fake Palm Trees

Betty White, Susan Flannery, Alley Mills, shooting a scene that will appear in about 6 episodes..

Betty Whites Trailer

So here are some pictures Finally.. It was so much fun shooting, The location (getting paid to spend a day at the beach..)And The Crew were really really nice, everyone from the Director to the Craft Service people.. But the two nicest people were Betty White and Alley Mills, They made me laugh all through out the day. I was suppose to shoot my first scene at 8.30 am but the other scenes took a little longer than expected to get through, so I didn't get to shoot mine until 5.30 pm, but it was well worth the wait.. I got to sit next to Betty White as she was dying, her very last episode ever of The Bold and the Beautiful... I didn't even know she was on it..

All the episodes of Golden Girls (Panter tanter) that I have watched, And all of the Bold and the Beautiful (Glamour) episodes back in the days, And The Wonder years, And there I was, next to Betty white and Alley Mills, Shooting one of the most classic soaps on TV ever.. Who would have thought?

Also shooting the cheesiest scene ever, Me painting the ocean in the sunset while she is lying on a sun bed next to me dying.. CRAZY!!!!!

And I had my very own trailer..

But, the craziest thing that happened all day was that my old Wellies showed up! Enda gave them to me when I worked for him, they came all the way from Ireland, but they were a size to big for me and really wide.. but I hae kept them in my closet for all this time until this summer when I gave them away to the Salvation Army.. And all of a sudden this girl who is playing a fisher man is wearing my boots.. My first question was, are those a size 8? when the answer was Yes! I ran over to the wardrobe girl and asked her where she got the boots from.. I bought them at the salvation army store last week she says.. WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THAT????

My Boots that Enda gave me..

Shooting from sunrise...

..until sunset

just my trailer again.

I don't have any pictures of me or me with the ladies but I'm hoping that they will send some to me, the set photographer took lots and lots of pictures of us..

xx

me angry

S0 weird, I have been in a really good mood all day..and all night since I got home, but now, at 11.30pm i'm lying in my bed all mad. Angry. and not just a little angry..Feel like I wanna kill someone, but I don't know why? maybe i'm too tired.. But now im too angry to sleep, i'm already worrying about tomorrow morning, I'm not known for being all happy and cheerful in the morning..

Hm maybe I do know why I'm angry.. I don't know, ..

Updates will come! At "rules of engagement" set today.. Don't have my own trailer today, but I was just served a great breakfast! Will tell all about yes

terday as soon as I get home..xx

Damn it.. Should have brought a book to read in my very own trailer..

DANCE PARTY

Had a great fun night last night!!
Started out well with everyone being more than an hour late, So I had first dips on the Oreo Cookies and the Chips and dip that Alia had bought, It also gave me enough time to get perfectly drunk before they all showed up! Hung out on the balcony with Sven and Lukas for a while, a very rare occasion these days since Sven doesn't leave his house too often.. Then I think I danced on the couch, then we all went to MI-6 in West Hollywood and danced our asses off, I also danced my phone, my camera and my wallet off to somewhere..

Luckily enough some guy knocked me on the shoulder and he had found my camera on the floor, though it was crusched, hence no pictures from last night so you get to enjoy this gorgeous picture of my new blouse, then a couple of hours later some guy approached Maria and asked her if her name was Jennifer since he had found her wallet. Jennifers wallet. I didnt even know it was gone, but i gladly skipped my way over to the bar to collect it from the darling bartender that had found it!

Now its Flight of the Conchords time again, I have a crush on Bret..

JOSEFIN IS GETTING MARRIED!!

My Best friend is getting married to the best guy in the world! I love them so much and I'm so happy for her! And also a tiny bit jealous..

KRÄFTSKIVA

Had a photo shoot in Silver Lake at 8am this morning, these were my kids.. and the crayfish that my husband is having an affair with.. It was a really fun shoot, we got a lot of laughs! Now i'm gonna have a little nap to charge my batteries for dance party at Alias tonight..

I'M WORKING!!

The music video was finally released yesterday and I just got the pictures sent to me from Matt at Epitaph Records and the DVD is in the mail over here.. Slept in today, thought today was gonna be a recovering day, not doing much, But DAMN WAS I WRONG!
Woke up to 34 new e-mails, have been called in to audition for a big commercial,
wardrobe called me for Mondays Bold and the Beautiful shoot. Then NBC called and I'm going in there for an interview on Tuesday, Sofia has submitted me for some TV show but I don't really know what it is.. have to find out now, Than I was booked on a Motorola commercial for tomorrow, but I had to cancel since I am already booked for the comedy piece. Then the casting agent from B&B called me again with more details.. Now i have to look in to clothing for the shoot tomorrow and the one on monday, then I'm hoping to either go hiking or to go to African dance class..

Another night at Little Dom's

Me and Lukas went out for dinner last night..

At the table next to us, was this strange lonely man, he didn't say much, just stared at us, and once in a while he started to hum a hymn, silent kind of in a whispering voice, he didn't say a word while ordering, just raised his hand and pointed to his glass..

When it was time to pay, he brought out a bunch of singles, hummed a hymn and laughed out loud, a mean vicious laugh Moah ha ha Moah ha ha ha.. Lukas got a little scared and pulled away, but I decided to help the lonely man instead..

I counted and counted and counted but it just wouldn't add up, we decided to do the weird man a favor, we put his tab on our plastic.

Still, the lonely weird man did not utter a word to thank us, he just got back to his starring and his mumbling of a hymn.

We got up and left.. Lukas ran like I have never seen anyone run before.. A couple of hours later I found him not smoking on the street outside of El Chavo, still upset but breathing calmly..