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So, not only do I have to pack and fix things for my trip to Australia, I also have to decide whether to come back here or not?

And if I do, there are all the practical things to deal with, like living situation, If i go and stay with my friend living out of my suit cases again, I will not have a printer, (might sound like a small problem but to me its huge, and don't say, just go buy one, I had one that one of my so called friends stole from me, and no one admits to doing it, I really hope it is the alcoholic one but unfortunately I do not think so) And its living out of a suit case again, I'm so over that!

And if I don't, Do i sell the car? rent it out, what do i get rid of, storage or ship things to Sweden??
And what do I do with my agent? just signed a new contract, and if i go away will they keep me on until or if im coming back? or will hey let me go and then if ill come back i have to find another one again?
And what am I gonna do in Sweden?

I don't wanna miss pilot season, it is all just such bad timing AGAIN. If only I had had another month, that has been the plan in my head all along, end of February..
but we cant let life get boring and predictable, can we now?

Should i just move to London?

And as a letter in the mail... Pain, fever and breakouts. I really need this vacation, three weeks in Australia! with my family! I'm gonna do my best to put all this aside the second I set my foot on that plane.. never really works, but im really gonna try!