In 24 hours

Since I missed the whole Christmas thing, left on the 24th, arrived on the 26th and Got to the airport at 6.30pm flight left at 10.20pm, and that gave me plenty of time to have a Christmas dinner on my own..
Big mac meal at LAX $8.50, I thought it was a joke.. then I sat down at the gate and waited and waited, next to me a pretty loud Russian woman was sitting, and I thought it would be just my luck to end up close to her on the flight..

No TV of my own and guess what.. who had the seat next to me? THE RUSSIAN LADY! I thought that was a joke as well.. lucky me, this really noce guy came ans squeezed his little butt in to the seat between us.. poor guy!

Then I landed in SYDNEY!!!! And guess what? It's raining.. and my family forgot to pick me up at the airport.. That was no joke!

Finally at Patrik and Wendy's house, just an amazing feeling to be with my family again!

Then we all crammed ourselves in to Wendys car, well not Pappa, he went running.. and took a little tour around the neighborhood

then we saw AVATAR in 3D, not so amazing, but not too bad either.. Then me an Mamma took a walk and did some shopping, went home had a little Christmas dinner, then I fell asleep on the couch and got yelled at by my brother for not doing the dishes, but now.. I'm in bed, we skipped the pub tonight thank god, i am knack-ed, but tomorrow, Tomorrow the adventure will begin! (still raining though)
nite nite

GOD JUL/ MERRY CHRISTMAS FRIENDS

All min kärlek till er alla i Jul, är så otroligt glad för att ni finns där, ni anar inte hur mycket! Och tack for att ni orkar läsa om alla mina problem här, på nåt sätt så känns det som att ni lite närmare.. Och tack for allt stöd och support och alla uppmuntrande ord när jag är nere. Och för att ni alltid hittar sätt att få mig att skratta! Jag kunde inte önskat mig bättre vänner och familj! Jag kunde inte ha gjort det har utan er!Älskar er, Ta hand om varandra i Jul så ses vi snart,
Er Jennifer

All my Love to you this Christmas, I am so incredibly lucky to have you all, You have no idea how much I appreciate it! And thanks so much for giving me a shoulder to lean on when I need it, and for all the positive words and support when I'm down and troubled, and for making me laugh...I could not have done this without you! You mean the world to me!
take care of each other this Christmas and I will see you all soon..
Yours,
Jennifer

Ps.Yogi said today: Your greatness is measured by your gifts, not by what you have.
Merry x-mas

Adding some love to our xmas cards

X-mas gifts

I think this obsession with buying Christmas gifts is a little bit too much!
I mean seriously, we as grown ups, do we really need other grown ups to buy things for us???
I know it is a nice gesture and all, but when you are over 2o and you write a wish list I think it is being a bit ego. You are obviously old enough to work and make your own money i;e buy things for yourself.
If you buy something for your spouse, that's one thing, or the closest family, but even then why wish for or buy expensive things?
It is just an exchange of money. It is a bit ridiculous, And even worse, the people that give you money in an envelope for Christmas? Why? (Not talking about the grand parents here )
Also I think a lot of people these days buy gifts to each other not because they want to give but because they feel like they have to, or because they wanna show us how generous they are, and then how fun is it to receive?

I say give that money to Cancer research or to children in the world dying from not having clean water to drink or that are dying from Malaria, Or the one's without somewhere to live or someone to love them. A couple of dollars will do!
And give your loved one's something more important, some Love and a home cooked meal, and a bit of your time instead.

I'm chubby!

I tried my dress that I bought for New Years on... could not get the zipper to close. Oups! So to make myself feel better, I dyed my hair and bought another pack of Oreo cookies. I hope this is as stupid as I'll ever get.

Oh what a day..

..this turned out to be! The early morning and the Storm, The FedEx deliver decided to show Just as I was in the shower.. decided to go shopping with Malin but started feeling a little sick, thought it was just because I was tired. Then Christopher called and said his flight had been canceled due to a whole in the engine (after 7 hours at the airport) and he is now back home.

Then Malin called and said she had to go help a friend who's car had been towed, she was just gonna go check her emergency break on her own car first, and now she called again and said that they had told her to take her car back to the dealer cause there are so many wrongs with it.. but she wants to get together for dinner and a movie tonight, but know I'm all curled up in bed with Pete watching Mammoth and feeling really sick! Can not believe it!

Chicken soup for dinner!!!

It's a Storm

It is Storming outside, not just a little windy it is a full blown storm.
I'm in bed, listening to all the banging and whining that the storm are causing outside, drinking coffee, watching the view and thinking about the 2 big questions in life. Why the hell did i cut my bangs off again??? And will Marc Jacobs still have my ring for sale? I can not live without it, its been gone since Friday and I miss it A lot!

LAX and back

Left at 6.15am thought it was just gonna be a quick drop off at the airport, little did we know that there were chaos and so I got stuck in traffic for an hour. at least the sunrise was pretty beautiful, got back and there were no parking on the street so I had to pull through the gates and my car is now blocking all the neighbors, just dropped down in bed again waiting for my dear neighbors to come knock on the door and ask me to move my car, then there is a fed ex coming that im gonna recieve for my landlord and at 3pm Christophers dog sitter will be here and Chris lost his keys last night so now I have to let him in as well.. so now im gonna try to fall asleep to the morning news..with Pete all curled up next to me

Uh Oh

Just got back from West hollywood, had some drinks with Christopher, maybe too many considering that i'm gonna take him to the airport at 6:15 tomorrow morning..
I'm gonna be the last one leaving this city.. no one to drive me to LAX, and the last one to come back. wih no one to pick me up either. May not be a big thing but its always nice to feel that yu have someone that cares enough to see you off or pick you up.. especially the coming back part, it's always tough. This will be my 3rd time coming back (unless you count the very first one in 2004) when I will be coming back with no one to pick me up and no where to live?? first time was after me and Dan broke up, I think may 2007, then again in June 2009 and now, in January.. so why do i do this again?????????????????????? I really don't mind flying, but when you are coming back to a state of nothing, the trip is not so exciting.. I never want to land cause i hate the feeling of having to deal with all that stuff.

One more thing:
I spoke to Josefin today and she said she had a hard time following and understanding what is going on with me over here.. and I apologize for being unclear. I just leave a lot of stuff out and then I jump into it now and then, and most of the time I have talked to someone of you about it and i guess I just assume that you are all gonna get what I am talking about, but since this little thing that we call my blog is here for you to follow it all so I wont always have to make 300 phone calls( even though I would prefer that but can not afford it) ..If i am not making any sense, please please let me know! I also wanna get one of those translating things so I can write in Swedish and you English speaking people will get the translation but I have not had time to figure out how to do that.
Cause even though this helps me a lot, just to write about things, just for me, I also realized lately that there are many of you out there reading this thing and I want you all to understand it and if not enjoy i,t at least make you feel like you are not wasting your time as much!

If there are things that you want me to write more about, please let me know!!!!!! things not to write about I can't really help you with as much, ill just write what I'll write and that's it!

OK, If i get in bed within the next 30 minutes I might be asleep within an hour and that will give me 5,5 hours of sleep, if the cats will behave so goodnight ya'll.

I MISS YOU MUCH!!!!!

Preparations

Have crossed a lot of things of my list today! So nice.. when i woke up this morning i didnt think i was gonna get anything done, I was so tired, 2nd night in a row that the cats have been nuts running around jumping on me, smelling my breath, and after Three looong loong days of work..
Felt bad, Mattias left and I was just in bed all morning couldn't get up!
then i had a little chat with Yogi and he said:

Happiness comes when you overcome the most impossible challenge.

Though I think that I should be the happiest person on earth if that was true.. well I'm not unhappy either, really not. But i guess still have a couple of miles to go! So, I decided, a deep breath and a positive thinking will get me through this as well! ( and maybe a little help from my friends)And i am damn determined to not spend my time in Australia thinking and worrying, but to really enjoy myself and enjoy being around my family!

Hoping to get drunk tonight.. I know i may sound like an alcoholic saying that but I really really need it! And I wan't it!

slow Sunday..

wow today was a drag! where looking forward to go out for a drink but the tall guy was too tired (i got home at 10pm )so, here I am, in bed and it feels gooood!! Tomorrow Monday.. then its three days left until I leave, and so much to do!!

Brittany Murphy dead! Crazy crazy and very sad, some of the crew here just wrapped a movie with her, they say it was probably drug related, but still sad..

Morning from me and Pete

An very unwilling Pete I might ad, he says he rather sits and stars out through the door then say hi to people he dont even know that well..! Heading down to Irvine again.. phew.. the drive is exhausting.. at least they are paying for my gas.. And hopefully ill get out early enough to have time to see Emilia, have canceled on her about 50 times in the last 3 days.. and Im hoping ill be able to show Mattias around town before he leaves tomorrow..
keep your fingers crossed for me!
xx

Took me 2 hours to get to irvine, traffic was terrible but it was well worth it! And since I was late the lot was empty only one person there so I walked up and said excuse me and he turned around and it was that guy that played superman in Louis and Clark, remember the one with Terri Hatcher.. He was super nice, showed me to the extras holding and then said he had to go run lines and I see you at the party! Cool huh? He's like a living legend in my life.

Mattias

He is staying with me for a couple of days and of course he shows up at. My house in a limo..

A bittersweet goodbye party!

Anine is moving back to Norway to launch her music career so last night was a bittersweet goodbye party, I started the night in Tess and Malins house, Malin had made some delicious mexican food, and then I rushed of to Was, Finally got the chance to congratulate Matt and Chau!! They got engaged on Monday! Then off to bardot were i was suppose to dance but at that point I could barely stand on my two feet! Again, an amazing night with amazing people, only sad thing is that i lost the big black stone that goes in my Marc by Marc ring.. I love it so much and they don't sell it any more.. what do I do??

The man that is to blame for all those lady ga Ga hits that you can't get out of your head,
where did you go by the way, lost you somewhere?

Ended the night at Tess and malins house again.. with some more mexican food, Got home way to late, had night mares all morning, so stressed out about the whole moving thing. All I wanna do is pull the covers over my head and sleep the whole thing away.. but no, i have to make my self look pretty, which feels like an impossible mission today and go to work. Oh and I just remembered that my pants bursted last night, time to lose some weight again! And I regret cutting my bangs off again..

Ok, Now would be a good time for you to call me!

Boy in black

Me like! A lot!

Shooting at the chess park

By santa monica pier, we are having a smaller issue with a weird man who is trying to get in to all the shots, plice has now escorted him away twice..

Tomorrow will be better

Tonight feels like a bad breakup.

This one is better..

" To be healthy: eat right, walk right, and talk to yourself right."

I haven't been able to talk to myself right but I talked to my mum and she talked to me right.
She always knows what to say and she made me feel so much better. I can't say it enough, i have the best family and friends in this world!

Some good things happened too today.. i finished my pitch to a record label, should have done it long time ago.. but now its in! And i booked a commercial for tomorrow, get paid to hang out on the beach all day, just what i need!

Now I'm just in bed tending to my aches and pains, feel pretty defeated, taking Betsy to the airport soon, don't want her to leave, all of a sudden I'm not looking forward to being alone!Can't wait to go out and get drunk and dance with my friends tomorrow!

Also I have to say I am so proud of my Mattias, my youngest brother, he left my parents in Sydney and took a trip to Steve Irvins Zoo..all by himself! Way to go! But well, as he said, he has got a lot to live up too.. ha ha I wonder what part of the world he could possible settle down in, It must be Africa or South America..

Ah I have to wax my legs today, must not forget!

??

So, not only do I have to pack and fix things for my trip to Australia, I also have to decide whether to come back here or not?

And if I do, there are all the practical things to deal with, like living situation, If i go and stay with my friend living out of my suit cases again, I will not have a printer, (might sound like a small problem but to me its huge, and don't say, just go buy one, I had one that one of my so called friends stole from me, and no one admits to doing it, I really hope it is the alcoholic one but unfortunately I do not think so) And its living out of a suit case again, I'm so over that!

And if I don't, Do i sell the car? rent it out, what do i get rid of, storage or ship things to Sweden??
And what do I do with my agent? just signed a new contract, and if i go away will they keep me on until or if im coming back? or will hey let me go and then if ill come back i have to find another one again?
And what am I gonna do in Sweden?

I don't wanna miss pilot season, it is all just such bad timing AGAIN. If only I had had another month, that has been the plan in my head all along, end of February..
but we cant let life get boring and predictable, can we now?

Should i just move to London?

And as a letter in the mail... Pain, fever and breakouts. I really need this vacation, three weeks in Australia! with my family! I'm gonna do my best to put all this aside the second I set my foot on that plane.. never really works, but im really gonna try!

Give me strength

And then I asked the yogi guru to come up with something good for me today, but he said; In order to be remembered,leave nothing behind but goodness.. Great word of advise but not really helpful today..

Tis the season

I think this is how you can tell that it is close to christmas, no tourists in town,no line for PINKS, first time ever I think ive seen this!tis a miracle..

But I'm awake..

Again, what a shitty day. I really feel like I want to curse a lot right now, but im gonna spare you from that. And then I tried to make something good out of it but even that turned in to pannkaka..

It's not that i don't want to go back to sweden, i mean i was sitting here wishing for just that this morning, but I meant more of a short visit of some kind. Im not done here yet, dropped of another bunch oh head shots with my agent today and I don't wont them to go to waste. I have to work something out.

And why does Chris Allens first single sound exactly like The script? who wrote it, can someone tell me Im to tired to google.

But I can't sleep..

Im tired.

I have to move by Jan 30th, again. I'm really tired of it, gonna think over night what to do, might try to rebook my Australia ticket and go straight to Sweden. I have a week to pack up and sell the car.. or I come back after Australia and do it all in two weeks.
I'm tired of it and I'm getting to old for this! I think this is it!

I'm Crying.

Bentley carrying my glove every winter walk we take. (I think it is so I can have one hand free to feed him Frolics with)

Woke up this morning just feeling so sad, Betsy is packing, she is leaving on Thursday. Everyone leaves this week to go home. I can't believe its Christmas already. I have not bought one Christmas gift. No decorations. Not lit any Advent candles, Seen Lucia or put up any decorations.
The stupid sun is shining.
And I just feel lonely today. And I hate change, so just the fact that my room mate is packing up and leaving makes me worried unstable and sad. And the worrying about my own flight, Weird isn't it? At least I know it's the change now.. it's easier to deal with when you know the source I think. I used to just be so sad before traveling not knowing why..

But this time it is also Christmas.
And as much as I am looking forward to go to Australia to see the family, I would much rather have everyone just being in Sweden. I wanna celebrate Christmas at Marsta with my aunts and Uncles and Grandma and the cousins, And the dogs, I miss the dogs, I just wanna sit on the kitchen floor and drink coffee, or sleep in front of the TV in my parents house. And to see all my friends. The God Children, And I want Snow!

I miss the puppies, And hopefully we will have new one's soon..

I even miss this, Skoja and Grisen after a walk, We are all pro overalls on dogs these days..

And then there is Farfar, first Christmas without him.. It's hard. Maybe it is good that we are not doing it the old fashion way this year, I don't know. But next year for sure.

Double stuffed oreo's

I have had too many Oreo Cookies and now i feel sick. But there are still a few left in the box and I really want to eat em.I'm trying not to, but, I know I'm gonna. I'm even trying to think about that I'm gonna have to wear a bikini in a week, to make myself stop, but its not working!

Dear God,

I was having such a good day, worked on Bold and the Beautiful again today, and I only did one scene, and got to leave after 1 hour (still paid for a full day) got home and found a check that I have been waiting for for years in the mail box.. weehaaa ... but... it wasn't signed, and I couldn't get a hold of the production company, but it had a fingerprint on it.. so I still went to 2 banks trying to cash the damn thing but it didn't work!Took me 2,5 hours due to traffic, finally got home,And no parking spaces on the street? why do everything have to be so damn difficult? A little slack once in a while wouldn't hurt..
Please see what you can do?
yours,
Jennifer

Ugly X-mas slut with a touch of Moose..

Chau and Matt decided to send out the memo about the dress code for the party the same day, " Christmas slut or Ugly Christmas sweater". I read it after my nap, around 5.30 and said, oh well, too late to do something now... Little did i know..
Betsy got home and pulled out some boxes of MAGIC from underneath her bed and she started gluing, humming and cutting away..

I found a pair of moose's antlers and disappeared in to the bathroom to play around.. I could hear Betsy laughing to her self out in the living room, but I choose to Ignore it, and kept singing all I want for Christmas is you to the mirror..

Well.. This is what she came out with..

And a little something for me.. Note the attached santa sack for me to use as a handbag..
Slutty and Ugly..

Then we headed up to the hills to eat meatballs and smoke water pipe all night..

I knew Betsy was brilliant already, but she managed to surprise me yet again..

In Sweden...

... We don't do bunny's.... We do moose's

Prepping for the party tonight

Good Monday too ya

Went to the police station in Santa Monica this morning to finally sort out that parking ticket I got at Seans house, I was prepared for a battle, but I just explained what had happened and she said - No worries ma'm I'm gonna take care of that for you, happy holidays.. and that was that.
Went to the bank, Trader Joe's, Ralph's and staples and the upholstery guy across the street and that took the rest of the day.And they called me fromBold and The Beautiful to make sure everything is in order for tomorrow! They are so great!

Oh, and I cut my bangs off.. they are completely uneven, but I'm too tired to fix it, gonna take a nap now and then I'm off to Matt and Chau's Christmas party!!! Finally get to see Eva again!